I was at my old stomping grounds pub tonight, to see the boys. It’s quite remarkable how they have completely accepted my not drinking. It’s almost like they know I have an alcohol problem or something! Phhhht! Can you imagine? NO ONE knew I had an alcohol problem! Especially ME. I kept it completely hidden from myself you know — in plain sight! Wasn’t anybody more surprised than I was to discover the truth…er, I mean the lies, just like all this crap I’m going on about right now.
But really, my pub-buddies have been remarkably accepting, even complimenting me…at laborious length…how great they think it is that I’ve quit drinking. I really didn’t expect that. It’s such a nice surprise, I think.
My problem now about the boy’s at the pub is that I seem to be losing interest in going to see them! I didn’t realize how ridiculous we — I — all sound after getting a few beers in us. The conversation, once the beer has settled in, sounds quite simply juvenile. I don’t mean that in a negative way as much as I mean it in a Star Trek “Spock” logical sort of way. Ok, boy’s will be boy’s, I guess. But…there just seems to be something…um, off…with all that tomfoolery now you know? Have I Until now, I was unable to see, let along start to question this.
I hooked my home stereo system up to my TV and computer this weekend. It took me a couple of hours. It’s taken me over FIVE YEARS to have the gumption to do that! Oh, I’ve tried a number of times, but could never figure out which doohickey plugged in where, which thingamajig connected to what, which wire led to this and what the heck was that button for and – oh – the on-screen set-up display from the receiver to the TV? Just too damn much for this guy! Gotta be an outright genius to figure all that stuff out I figured.
So, after doing it so easily this weekend, I sat there for a few minutes, humming, really listening and enjoying it — but quite dumbfounded, quite perplexed, quite confused. I even felt a bit sorry for myself — for my old self that is, that that poor ol’ sop’s brain was just too sopping wet from schlurping all the Schlitz to get it! Holy crap.
But now I see, and the view ain’t pretty, but it is enlightening!!! Stuff like this has been happening to me almost every day. It’s all a bit shocking, but encouraging, and most certainly humbling.
Free indeed. May we all.