Ok, my real name isn’t Nelson. That’s my pen name here, for obvious reasons. I’m not ready for friends, family and my employer to know the gruesome details of my battle with alcoholism. In fact, I wouldn’t be able to write in nearly as much detail if my true identity were known. Assuming I’m victorious with my “Quest” to get free of the bottle, I may at that time “come out of the closet”, so to speak. I would like that.
I struggled even saying this much, but your comments have been so kind, and we are building real relationships here, after all, by reading and subscribing to each others blogs, which I think is very special. The rest of the personal details that I share in my blog entries are “pretty close” to the truth. I do have children, and grandchildren. I do work in the Service industry. I recently turned 60. I live alone in British Columbia on the west coast of Canada. I did start drinking at a very young age, although not daily until I was about 19.
My alcohol use started small, but progressed quite rapidly as I got older. In my twenties I drank 1, sometimes 2, tall cans of beer per day. In my early 30’s I was up to 2 to 3 per day. When I went through my divorce in my late 30’s I got really serious and ramped it up to 4 to 6. At age 41 I started going to pub’s and bar’s (having always drank at home previously). That’s when I started bingeing, often getting quite drunk on the weekends. And the rest is history. It got progressively worse — that’s the nature of this horrific beast. While mostly sober since last September, I’ve relapsed a couple times. I’m not pretending to be completely out of the woods yet.
I realized that I had a serious drinking problem about 15 years ago and have been battling with it ever since. I went to my first A.A. meeting about that time, but have attended very sporadically since then. I started intensive counseling about 9 years ago, seeing first a Cognitive Behavioural Therapist (CBT) and then switched to a Jungian psychotherapist about 5 years ago. The counselling and therapy has been a great help, but was not the “cure” that I hoped for. Well worth the time and investment, nevertheless, especially the Jungian therapy for me.
So there you go. Thanks for joining me on this crazy journey, for better or for worse. With hope, we will ALL get better.
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You can also find me on Twitter as @onedrunkstale and on other forums and websites where I am using the name “Nelson88”.