Happy New Year..?

Can’t say I’m very happy. Bad hangover today. Xmas and New Years is a blur. I feel like a total loser. Well, I’ve definitely been losing the battle with the bottle, but to be honest I haven’t even wielded my sword against it. I’ve been an all too willing participant. But I do plan to taper down and be alcohol free by Wednesday or Thursday this week and join in to the “Dry January” pledge that is quite popular over in the UK. I can do a few weeks sober, I think. And then maybe forever. One day at a time.

Don’t tell me I need to go to rehab. I am seeing an addictions counselor, at least. IF alcohol takes me down and I end up losing my job, then I’ll qualify for the government run program and then I WILL willingly go into rehab. I don’t think that that’s going to happen, though. I am optimistic that 2017 WILL be a happy new year, will be the year that I get free from this beast.

May we all be, or continue to be, free. May the light of grace shine upon us all.

P.S. Thanks to Beththesobergirl for posting today after a long absence…motivated me to write today as well, thank you…

12 thoughts on “Happy New Year..?

  1. Ugh. Been there before. Hang in there, at least you are trying. Don’t give up
    If you’re trying to achieve, there will be roadblocks. I’ve had them; everybody has had them. But obstacles don’t have to stop you. If you run into a wall, don’t turn around and give up. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.
    ~Michael Jordan

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  2. Only you can do it Nelson. Even Rehab won’t work if it is not what you want, Amy Winehouse could testify to that. Take one day at a time. Every day that you don’t drink is a gift for your poor body.

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  3. The only way you’ll be free “from this beast” is to stop drinking….It’s not “if alcohol takes me down” it’s matter of when if you continue to drink.
    with hope,

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