Can’t say I’m very happy. Bad hangover today. Xmas and New Years is a blur. I feel like a total loser. Well, I’ve definitely been losing the battle with the bottle, but to be honest I haven’t even wielded my sword against it. I’ve been an all too willing participant. But I do plan to taper down and be alcohol free by Wednesday or Thursday this week and join in to the “Dry January” pledge that is quite popular over in the UK. I can do a few weeks sober, I think. And then maybe forever. One day at a time.
Don’t tell me I need to go to rehab. I am seeing an addictions counselor, at least. IF alcohol takes me down and I end up losing my job, then I’ll qualify for the government run program and then I WILL willingly go into rehab. I don’t think that that’s going to happen, though. I am optimistic that 2017 WILL be a happy new year, will be the year that I get free from this beast.
May we all be, or continue to be, free. May the light of grace shine upon us all.
P.S. Thanks to Beththesobergirl for posting today after a long absence…motivated me to write today as well, thank you…