Wow. Thank you so much to those who have been commenting in the last couple of days. I have heard so many good things, so many heartfelt concerns about my welfare. Truly, most truly appreciated my friends. Ok, a few have made some off the wall comments, hence the mixed bag. But, bottom line, please know how much I appreciate those who have commented positively, definitively and honestly. I hear you all. Thank you so much.
That said, yes, these days I seem to only post when I am loaded. Like tonight. Until a few weeks ago, however, I never posted whilst loaded. I post while loaded now because I can’t post while I’m hungover. As many of you know, being hungover is a terrible state of being. I can hardly do anything while I’m hungover, let alone blog. So that means I have spent the last couple of months hungover EVERY DAY. Bad boy that I am. Well, I’m a drunk. What else to expect from a drunk!?
That also said, today I also made some inquiries around town to see what resources are available to me, aside from Detox, Daytox and REHAB. There isn’t much out there. The Daytox program (an out-patient government run program for hard core street bums, which I am not) is the only viable alternative for me, but as I’ve said before, I don’t think I can do it. BUT…if I don’t find any other program in the next week or two, then I will seriously consider it. AA is always there, of course, but for some reason, I just can’t stay the course with it. I go for a few days, and then hit the pub to celebrate going. Ya. It’s kind of funny…I go to a meeting and then hit the pub after the meeting to celebrate going to a meeting! Kind of funny. Kind of. Ok. Ok. Ha-ha…not.
So ya, that’s where I’m at tonight, today. Thanks for staying the course with me here. I really do appreciate your concern. And, I do believe down deep that I WILL BE FREE of this beast, by hook or by crook, soon. I hope. I pray.