I don’t think I have ever drank and blogged before, but here goes.
I had a pretty good day today. No major stress, no hangover. But, I went to my local “Cheers” and had a few. Quite a few. Why? Cause I wanted to. That’s it. I’ve got soup to eat shortly, so that I don’t have a horrendous hangover tomorrow. You know…when we drink on an empty stomach, we have the worst of the worst hangovers the next day. So, I KNOW BETTER! I know how to drink, to mitigate tomorrows hangover! What a winner I am! Right….
I wish that I didn’t know, so well.
My point is…how we so willingly not only drink, but even pay for, our POISON, behooves me. Yet, we do. Why? I’m still trying to figure that one out. The “nature of the beast” some will say. I have to agree. In fact, I’m seeing it all the more as some sort of THING that possesses us, in the most evil sense of the word. Like, it’s demonic. What does “Demonic” mean? Well, a very evil force that however much we would like to dismiss…those of us caught in the grasp of addiction…we just have to consider. No priest, sadly, can exorcise this from us. Why? I think it has to do will our WILL, which means it is within our own power, somehow. But, how to do??? That is the question. The answer, even with A.A…still eludes me.
We’re all in this together. Welcome!