Welcome!

Hi there. I wrote this introduction and started this blog in September of 2009. As you will see, now 7 years later, I’ve continued to drink…

This blog is the tale of a drunk. It will document either my deliverance or demise from what some people in our culture call the “Demon-Drink”; ALCOHOL.

I’m in my mid-fifties and had my first taste of alcohol when I was about six, but have been drinking steadily since I was 19. I can still remember my first sip of the emerald green, oh so sweet “Creme de Menthe”. So began my love affair with Alcohol!

See the “About Me” page (next to Home, above) for more of my background info.

Your comments, input, advice, admonishment, whatever, as I travel this journey are all most welcome and appreciated. I so desperately want to be “finally free”.

Nelson

One more time baby…

Ok, I finally have myself a new AA sponsor. Starting today I’m going to commit myself to going to at least one meeting per day. That’s easy for me because I live very close to one of the busiest AA meeting places, with meetings a 10, 2 and 7 or 8 pm almost every day. I’m NOT going to “taper-down” my drinking this time. Rather, I’m going to get a small bottle of wine and have a few ounces of it only if absolutely necessary if I am going through any significant withdrawal, which rarely happens when I quit drinking. I’ve used this method before with success.

So that’s my plan, folks. Oh, and I’ll be seeing my therapist once every two weeks again, who is very supportive of my desire to stop drinking. I’ve also told all of my drinking “buddies” about my plan to quit drinking and attend AA. Only one called me a woose.

For some reason I really think I’m going to follow through with all of this, this time. I feel a definite spark of optimism deep within my loins. YES. I’M GOING TO DO THIS. With the help of my higher power, I will.

Thanks again to all who have been faithfully supporting me here. Your support has truly made a great difference. Bless you all.

Nelson

Ok…hope on the horizon!

Ok, I get it. Good news actually! Tonight I had an AA friend offer to be my sponsor….on one condition…not that I quit drinking…but that I cut back as much as I can and keep in touch with him after that. I can do that!!! And, I will. Hope rises high on the horizon!!! 

Difficult…

I can’t imagine being a Meth addict. I’ve seen the effects of that, on body, mind and spirit: Zombies come to mind. We neighborhood drunks are far from that, although not that far. Alcohol rots us from the inside out. Our brains and vital organs take the greatest hit. Alcohol dementia awaits the oldest of our bunch — and that’s irreversible, folks, once it sets in. I think I’m on the verge of that. I still have hope, however, to back away from the brink, before its too late. I do hope. I’ll drink to that! Haha! 

Happy New Year..?

Can’t say I’m very happy. Bad hangover today. Xmas and New Years is a blur. I feel like a total loser. Well, I’ve definitely been losing the battle with the bottle, but to be honest I haven’t even wielded my sword against it. I’ve been an all too willing participant. But I do plan to taper down and be alcohol free by Wednesday or Thursday this week and join in to the “Dry January” pledge that is quite popular over in the UK. I can do a few weeks sober, I think. And then maybe forever. One day at a time.

Don’t tell me I need to go to rehab. I am seeing an addictions counselor, at least. IF alcohol takes me down and I end up losing my job, then I’ll qualify for the government run program and then I WILL willingly go into rehab. I don’t think that that’s going to happen, though. I am optimistic that 2017 WILL be a happy new year, will be the year that I get free from this beast.

May we all be, or continue to be, free. May the light of grace shine upon us all.

Nelson
P.S. Thanks to Beththesobergirl for posting today after a long absence…motivated me to write today as well, thank you…

Christmas greetings….

The Spirit of Christmas

While the word “Xmas” is most often substituted for “Christmas ” these days. The fact is we cannot and dare not take the “Christ” out of Christmas.

Christmas is an honouring and celebration of the birth of the man, Jesus. Yes, much controversy surrounds his history and legacy because, well it was 2000 years ago! That’s a long time.

What time and archeology and good historical analysis have shown regarding Jesus, however, is that most likely the historical account is true, that there was the man named Jesus, who made some pretty dramatic claims about his mission in life, and backed most of those up.

So, the historical Jesus account was most likely true. The possibility of his being physically resurrected from the dead is still hotly debated. Were he not actually resurrected then a lot of Christianity’s claims and ground to stand on could be severely challenged.

All that said, despite the Crusades and the burning of witches and all of that horrible stuff, most modern day scholars and theologians agree that Christianity is, and was always meant to be, a philosophy that promoted PEACE and can and should be promoted as one that was meant to originally be a spirituality rooted in and born from compassion and love.

What is compassion? Love in action. I’m sure most philosophers or theologians would whole heartedly agree, if challenged to define “God”, would say that He or It’s greatest character attribute is love. Even Islam believes in this (although interprets the ultimate application and ruling of that quite differently than modern day Christians do!)

So, safely said, love IS God’s ultimate essence. And how is love expressed? By compassion. Where there is compassion there is love….and there too is “God”. That’s the “It” aspect of God.

The true spirit of Christmas, then, is truly “tidings of good will” arising from our care and compassion for others, which is ultimately love in action. God, through us, being God.

That my dear friends, is my sermon for this Christmas. Feel free to comment! I wish you all a most blessed Christmas.

Nelson